To be an Overcomers

Today I am going to share on something marvelous which I’d gain in last weekend conference. This conference helped and encouraged me in my Christian life and thus I’m here again to share on the treasure that I’d gain to all my friends.

A brother from the United States, brother David, began the conference by directing us a question, “Are you willing to be an overcomer? Are you willing to make the choice?”

This is a matter of choice. God gives us the rights to choose just like Adam and Eve. God gives us the freedom to choose but are we willing to make the choice? What choice? The choice of being an overcomer!

Previously, I had a thinking of what for I had to be an overcomer? I just have to live a simple live. I do not need great achievement, fame, fortune… I just need a simple yet happy life which I believe most of us have this kind of feeling as well. We just have to go to campus, get a degree or master or even doctoral degree, then getting into the working society, getting married with a good husband or wife, children, taking care of family and eventually collapse. Besides, I had a kind of feeling that I just need to be ordinary and normal Christian, I do not have the burden nor feeling that I should involved very much and in deep in the church life which is categorized as unimportant to me. This is the kind of life that I thought and I am going to live as well.

This time conference, God reveals to me that to be an overcomer is not that I had to be spiritual hero. Is just an ordinary Christian living an ordinary life, loving the God with their whole heart, mind, soul and strength! In Mark 12:30 And you shall love the Lord your God from your whole heart and from your whole soul and from your whole mind and from your whole strength. To be an overcomer is important! For God need overcomer as His dispensational instrument.

I realised that it is not in a blink of eye that we would become an overcomer. It is through our daily life, through many little things in our daily life, the accumulation of decisions on things (from tiny little bean matter to big problems) in our daily life that we overcome with the overcoming Christ within us will make us the overcomer. It is not that we can do or perform but it is the Christ, the overcoming Christ, within us will overcome. In John 16:33 it says that These things I have spoken to you that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have affliction, but take courage; I have overcome the world.

Praise the Lord! He had overcome the world. I believe and I trust in His world He had overcome the world and everything that has been begotten of God overcomes the world.

To overcome something, the resistance within us, need a great effort. Whether I could overcome is all voice down to whether I want to make a choice? I am very much in touch when brother shared that will we overcome? We need to make a choice! The choice is in our hand! I might fail but I could prayer to the Lord that by Your grace and mercy I am able to overcome! For God is faithful, for the good work that He had started He will definitely accomplished.

However, in order to accomplish His work God’s work needs our cooperation. We need to cooperate with God. The first and the foremost thing is the dealing of our heart. Prayed to God to take away the veils within our heart, to dig away all the stones within our heart that we could received Him. The more we receive Him, the more we would know Him. I was very much in lack of knowing God. I still don’t know Him neither do I recognized His voice. If I know Him, I will overcome all things in my life, for the overcoming Christ overcome everything!

May the Lord grant me ears that could listen. Listen to His words and His speaking that I would be renewed day by day and by the little choices that I made in my daily life, choose the tree of life, He is able to make me an overcomer!

In 1 Peter 5:7-8, Casting all your anxiety on Him because it matters to Him concerning you. Be sober, watch. Your adversary, the devil, as roaring lion, walks about, seeking someone to devour. We are born to be in this world under satanic chaos but we are not belonged to satan. Praise the Lord. I treasure that to be an overcomer is not being delivered out of the satanic chaos, instead they conquer the destructive satanic chaos and triumph in the constructive divine economy. They do suffer in the chaos but instead of being disappointed or discouraged, they are strengthened by the all sufficient grace. I just realized that how much I need to know and apply the all sufficient grace to remain in His flow of life that by this overcoming Christ I would be able to overcome all things in my life.

I really need to learn to have faith and to believe even at this very moment. I am worried about my research; I am not able to found the solutions. In state of being bounded by the pressure and anxiety, I began to blog again to write out the enjoyment that encourages me last few days. It reminded me again to have faith. Casting all my anxiety unto God for it matters to Him concerning me. I need to be sober!

In our daily life, I was enlightened that I need to faithfully run the course that God had assigned to me. God had assigned me some course, but am I faithful? I am not! I am rebellious! May the Lord grant me mercy, shine on me that I would positively gazed upon God while running the course. Beside that I must behold and look away unto Jesus that I would be encouraged and be persistence with endurance to finish my course. Is not that I could but I need to apply the all-sufficient grace of God.

I was enlightened this morning when a sister called me to help her up in some of her complicated situations that drag her down. She shared to me regarding her life, her studies. Deep within me, I praise the Lord for enable me to be there at that time. Though I am busy and have my own research analysis to be carried out, I spare the time for her, for I know that she is more important than my research analysis. I didn’t do much; I just listen to her and pray for her deep in my heart. There is nothing that I could do to help her up. Only God could give her peace within that she is able to move on in her life. Now I realized that why brother mention about come to meet together! Meetings encourage and strengthen each other’s faith. This noon, I purposely request to go to Jalan Song to have lunch, is not that I have a lot of time to spare but I would like to meet brother and sisters that I would be encouraged by the Christ within them. We all have different kind of complicated situations but Praise the Lord that we could come together to encourage each other to go on in the course!

Colours..

This few days when I was having a deep thought on some important matters. I just realised that when man lost his directions all things could happen.

Try to view at this photo.. What is in your mind and what can you see from this photo?

I could only said that, I could only view colours.. patches of colours!!! Other than that I could see nothing! If I were to be placed in the photos which colour I choose to be? Red, yellow, marroon, blue, cyan, grey, black...

I'm the one who determine the colours of my life..

Though most of the time I can't change the outward situation. I was forced to do things and was forced to be placed and to be forced to be who I am.. There is one thing that I realised, even thought now I was in grey, little white dot in grey could brightened up the grey. Who is willing to place that little white dot in my life?

A friend of mine, remind me of colours that he had lasted spoken to me before met a misfortune and left. I hate this kind of feeling.. not only grey but black.. so dark that I could see NOTHING!!! Just NOTHING.. I thought my life is going to be grey and black forever.. I close myself up from colours..

Luckily, God still have mercy on me, He give me few dots of colours (bright colours) that ensure me that I still have lots of hope.. He gives me stars...

When you view this photo, what you see? You noticed the dark background or you see the bright dots..

I see bright dots..

I'm thankful that I was still given a chance. Though I'm not sure how long would I be here.. but one thing for sure is that I still have you. I have all of you.. my dearest frens, family, brothers and sisters.

Friends..

Friends are like balloons; once you let them go, you might not get them back.

Sometimes we get so busy with our own lives and problems that we may not even notice that we've let them fly away.

Sometimes we are so caught up in who's right and who's wrong that we forget what's right and wrong.

Sometimes we just don't realize what real friendship means until it is too late.

I don't want to let that happen, so I'm gonna tie you to my heart so I never lose you.

Friendship For^eva^..

Draw me one step further..

Lord Jesus draw me, one step further

Draw me, Lord from where I am

I’ve been here too long already

Move me, Lord I know You can.

Your whisper, Lord, so softly sounding

Deep within my heart does burn

Let Your stillness now subdue me

That Your feeling I discern.

All idle thoughts and impure feelings

Lord, remove from mind and heart

Wash me in the crystal water

And more life to me impart.

All heathen things that block my vision

Rocks of self-ambition, pride

Now expose and burn away, Lord

By Your look intensify.

Increase the weight of glory in me

Let Your Spirit now transform

That all things would not be wasted

But would work to save me more.

Lord Jesus, Oh how much I need You

Thank You Lord, that You are here

Ever present as the Body

I would always seek You there.

It was by the mercy of God that I came across this hymn once again. Time really flee, without my realisation it had been 3 weeks since I came back from Bintulu.. Having all kinds of services and my own research work really worn me out.. Thinking over what had I done in this few weeks really have to repent to God for being rebellious, unfaithful, blind...

I had been here too long. I do not know what's others situation. I need to come back, back to the tree of life, back to Christ.

Many time I strive to put things down, strive to do many things.. remind me of stanza 3

"All heathen things that block my vision

Rocks of self-ambition, pride

Now expose and burn away, Lord

By Your look intensify."

I could not remain in the same situation. I need to rise up. Back! Remembered once a brother said, "We need to exercise before God, not man!" This sentence come into my mind reminding me that I could choose to give up, give up all things (all the exercises and practices).. It was only going to prove that all this while, I had gain no Christ!!! I just gain a view in others mind.. If I really gain Christ and being touch by Him deeply I won't be who I am now at this moment!

Though I do not think this way, my daily life in this few weeks really show. Showing that how weak I am, just too weak!!! In all practices and exercise, I just could not make it.. Though there is a great will, but my body and my mind could not afford it!

In the book of Mark, For Everything is possible to God! Before this verse, Jesus said that it is easier for a camel to enter into the eye of the needle than a rich man enter into the kingdom of God.. How could it be? How could a huge camel enter the eye of the needle? Is through all the processes.. Being renewed and being transformed.. In the process of being renewed and transformed, there are times we might fall and become weak but this is a process.

This remembered me of how i learn to walk when I was a babe. I fall down, hurt.. there was tears.. But once the process is done, see I can walk and run properly now!!!

Thank God for the dizziness today that I'm not able to continue on my things. Refreshed myself and move on again.

Consecration is all that matters!!!

Meaningful Quotes

Feel a bit dizzy today.. Began to not feeling well.. browse through my e-mail, saw this meaningful mail.. share with you all..



This is really a great lesson to learn..
I was worried recently about my research, my personal problems and........ when i saw this, really felt that I am an idiot.. not knowing how to cast all things unto God..
Don't you think that you are more precious than the birds???

Thus, in nothing be anxious, in everything, by prayer and petition, make your request to be make known to God. And the peace of God which surpasses every man understanding will guard your heart and your thought in Christ Jesus.. Amen. ^-^

I love my new ringtone

A new start again for me!!! Gonna start my research soon... Gambatte!!! Yun...

I had changed my ringtone yesterday just feel nice whenever my phone ring!!! ^-^

"Nothing gonna change my love for you" by George Benson. Try to listen to this nice and sweet song. You will fall in love with it. Now I realized that a nice ringtone really affect the mood of the owner of the phone.

Have a nice day.. Love ya!

Phobia..

Stress up.. Got anybody know the specific term for those scare of his or her phone ringing? Too many messages and phone calls...

It was really a torture to have 2 mobile phones at the same time. I noticed that I was scared to switched on my mobile phones this few days. The highest record of 132 received sms and 28 received calls (from 6am till 1am).. Taking me hours to deal with it and keep recharging my phones for too much received calls... It seems like my life had turn into phone operator!!! Anyone can help me!!!

Is NOT dating, NOT family members but new students, friends, housemates' sms and calling so as to get informations and helps, all the 'Rubbish', ordered, complaints, murmuring... I tried my best to help and it seems that I really make it but it turn to a PHOBIA to me...

Why no one sms or call to care and love for me? It's my turn to complaints and murmur..

Aaaaaa........... feel like scream to the end of my voice...

By the way, luckily still got place to go online to release all the tension while dealing with all the sms and calls... Thank God!

Cheers... ^-^

Decisions..

Recently, a lot of people approached me for advices. “What should I do?” A simply yet difficult to answer question that they posted to me in order to get confirmation for their decision.
I was trembling when they asked me for opinions no matter in their daily life or their spiritual life. A wrong word, a wrong suggestion would ruin their life and their future. Today I was saved by few verses in the bible,

1 Corinthian 2:3-5 And I was with you in weakness and in fear and in much trembling; and my speech and my proclamations were not in persuasive words of wisdom but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power, In order that your faith would not stand in the wisdom of men but in the power of God.

1 Corinthian 2:9-10 But as it is written, Things which eye has not seen and ear has not heard and which have not come up in man’s heart; things which God has prepared for those who love Him. But to us God has revealed them through the Spirit, for the Spirit searches all things, even the depths of God.

It was not what opinions that I could search and give them that they would be help. I strongly believed that if I approached someone for their opinion, I had actually made my own decision. What I need was that someone, who I think is mature enough to assure me. This should not be the way.

In 1 Corinthian 2:5 here said that In order that your faith would not stand in the wisdom of men but in the power of God. Is the power of God that would be able to keep us in every situation. God is omnipresence and omniscient, He arranged and provided all things even ere the world began just for us to seek Him as love, life just everything.

How are we able to seek Him? Praise the Lord that He had gone through processes, today He become the life-giving Spirit live within us. Just like air, we cannot see but it is there. Human being are created with human spirit, we need to be regenerated to be His children. Through the Spirit we are able to discern all things because God has revealed all things through the Spirit that the Spirit searches all things, even the depths of God. When we exercise our spirit turn to God, we would be brought above the cloudy sky that we could see clearly the blue crystal-clear sky. Thus, we should always lift our eyes to the hills, from there will our help come. Jehovah is our keeper, who made heaven and earth will not let our foot slip, He keeps us and neither slumber nor sleep.

The Song of A Lover

1. Your beauty and Your very dear Self, Have drawn me to run after You;
I am born and fed by You, In Your chambers I dwell for aye.

© My Belov’d, I belong to You, My Belov’d, How lovely You are;
In life and nature we are one-, we’re bound in love, ne’er be apart.

2. Your divine nature now I possess, It’s Your life that beautifies me;
Renewed, Obedient am I, Leaping now with my Belov’d.

3. Like a dove, singly I gaze on You, Like a lily I trust-in You;
I’m transformed and built by You, To become Your rest and joy.

4. In the fields I sojoutn now with You, Working with You in love-for life;
As a queen, I’m Your delight, To be raptured my hope is.

© On Your heart, set me as a seal, For Your love is as strong as death;
I desire my Belov’d and King-, Make haste, the mountains of spices.


I enjoyed this hymn, a wonderful expression of the follower of Christ to be transformed and eventually to be His bride.
I was born anew while I was in my Pre-U. However, I was not a lover of Christ. What I thought was it was a waste of time and boring to join such a meeting. I preferred to dream and stayed in my own small lovely world with my own future plan.
Praise the Lord that He loved and He will love till the end. His love drew me nearer to Him. Through each and every circumstance that He provided for me, make me turn to depend on Him make Him as my center that I would not stumble and remain in His house.
God is divine, He wants to make us the same as He is thus He renewed our mind that we could turn to Him like a dove and lily gazing and trusting in Him.
May the Lord had grace and mercy upon us renewed, transform and built us that we could become His rest and joy and be His delight.

Winnie the Pooh

Winnie the Pooh, the lovable bear who's stuffed with fluff, is also called Pooh, or Pooh Bear, but never, ever, just Winnie. His friends; their happiness and feelings are Pooh's chief concern, and there is no better friend than Winnie the Pooh. Pooh endlessly craves honey or a smackerel of whatever little something is at hand to soothe that insatiable "rumbly in his tumbly."

Pooh is acting cool... just like me... :p

Actually, Winnie the Pooh is a fictional bear created by A.A. Milne and he first appeared in book form in 1926. Milne named the character after a teddy bear owned by his son, Christopher Robin Milne.

Take a rest lo..

Not only girls but some boys also fall in love with Winnie the Pooh because he is just too cute!!! My cousins love the Pooh very much... whenever I going back to Sibu to visit them, a Pooh in my hand is worth more than all the candies... haha...

Pooh with all his friends...

Marcho guy... cute Pooh for you all.. hihi..

UNIMAS

Let me introduce my University, UNIMAS, a place that I used to hate it very much. However, now I change my perception already and I'm going to introduce to all the readers about my campus.

Universiti Malaysia Sarawak (University of Malaysia, Sarawak), UNIMAS, is the eighth University in Malaysia that was incorporated on 1992. Over the years, the University has grown rapidly with the establishmetn of 8 Faculties. There are, Faculy of Medicine and Health Sciences, Faculty of Engineering, Faculty of Economics and Business, Faculty of Computer Science and Information Technology, Faculty of Applied and Creative Arts, Faculty of Cognitive Sciences and Human Development, Faculty of Social Sciences and Faculty of Resource Science and Technology.

At the moment, I don't have all the Faculties photos, but I will update when I got another new camera... Not sure when will it be... but soon...

Here are some photos that I grap somewhere. Have a brief view of my campus...

Satelite view of UNIMAS
UNIMAS Logo

UNIMAS main campus entrance

Chancellory
Library
Faculty of Engineering

Faculty of Resources Sciences and Technology...

Want to have a clear view. Pay a visit to http://www.unimas.my/ or visit UNIMAS once.. you will fall in love with it. Hihi..

Teletubbies...

Let me introduce a children's television series that caused my siblings and I stick in front of the television for half an hour when we were about 4-12 years old...

TELETUBBIES

Let me introduce, Tinky Winky (purple), Dipsy (green), Laa-Laa (yellow) and Po (Red). So we named ourselves after this cute characters... My eldest sister is Tinky Winky, I'm Dipsy, my younger sister is Laa-Laa and the youngest one Po...

Hihi.. not including my eldest brother... Not in the same world (Power Ranger) :p

Now reviewing the cartoon characters, really have lots of memory with my siblings that might not happen again in our life time, since we all busy with our own stuff... anyway, Tinky Winky, Dipsy, Laa-Laa and Po will always be together...Haha... i just realised that Dipsy is the darkest one... :( no wonder i am the darkest one among all the siblings :( hihi... but I'm glad of who I am... no one can replace...
Cheers... Teletubbies...

四年大學生活

得知我將要在砂大就讀﹐真的好失望﹗
到我不願意去的地方就讀…
嗨…
沒辦法﹐為了不要爸爸媽媽傷心硬着頭皮去吧﹗
可是為了抗議﹐
臨去前還把長髮剪到好短﹐嚇壞我的父母啦﹗
就這樣從民都魯飛到了古晉。

從機場步出﹐看到微微的陽光﹐我真的到了﹗
臉上一個微笑也沒有。
好虧欠到機場接我和幾個姊妹的弟兄們。
嚇壞他們了﹗
給他們的印象應該是﹐哇﹗好酷 + 凶啊﹗
就這樣開始了我大學生涯
嗨﹐還能怎樣?
不管如何我都要盡力拿個文憑﹐
如果不盡力到最好的學校也沒用。。。

這幾年﹐可說是過得好不簡單。
每一年都是把我變成我自己不願意成為的人。
每一年身邊的朋友都說同一句話﹐ “你真的變了﹗”
我到底變了什麼樣子? 我自己也不曉得?
是好是歹? 從來沒有人對我說。
只知道他們第二句就是﹐ “我們還是比較喜歡以前的你﹗”
你到底發生了什麼事?
真正的你到哪裡去了?
你的鬥志到哪裡去了?
你的性格到哪裡去了?
你的意志﹐好勝﹐驕傲﹐同情﹐酷… 到哪裡去了?
我還在﹗

我還在﹐只是長大了﹗
用不同眼光看待每一件事。
我的鬥志﹐
我的性格﹐
我的意志…
都還在﹐只是被磨過變了形狀而已。

在這幾年﹐我認識了一位主﹐
一位我以往非常抗拒的﹐
我可惜認識他太晚。
是他的愛拖住我這頑固的小孩。
每一次﹐
放蕩﹐他來教訓﹐
失望﹐他來安慰﹐
孤單﹐他來陪伴﹐
軟弱﹐他來加強﹐
無助﹐他賜溫暖的手﹐
傷心﹐他來擦干我的眼淚。
他是何等的一位。

每一年﹐
為了保守我這位頑固的小孩﹐
主用他萬邦的智慧﹐
使我漸漸的向他敞開﹐
雖然時常很不用意﹐
到後來還得給認輸﹗

主他何等的愛我。
以往我不認識主，認為他是無情的
但主他還是憐憫小子
用他的愛繼續來溶化我這一個人。

在這几年，主用個樣的環境來破碎
環境一波未停一波又來。
一個人在無助時想起我還有一位主，
一位可愛的救主。

如今四年的大專的生涯就要成歷史，
但我所學習的不僅僅是所修的科系
乃是在課業上無法學習的功課。
主在我身上所做的一切不是徒然的。

最近, 應著升學的事, 有點失望。
矛盾的心情一直浮現…
相照著自己想往的地方去,
不是為了夢想,也不是為了學業, 難道我是為了要他失望,傷心?
我要報酬? 可是這又何必? 傷害到的不是他而是你自己…
到底我為甚麼會這樣? 我怎麼啦?
我知道我應但作甚麼, 我當走的路是如何。
但是我還要在那裡兜圈子.. 不肯順服,不肯相信, 不肯… 就是不肯…
“奧秘的人…” 這一句話, 我不知道他的意釋, 我也不想猜。應為我的事沒有他的事… 又不是我的誰, 為甚麼要聽他的… 應為做決定的是我, 不要以別人為我考盧的焦點。我的生活沒有人能為我做決定。 可能主能!
我總與鼓起勇氣做了決定. 心頭上的重石頭, 終於肯放下了… 真的不明白為甚麼我要選這麼艱難的路來走。只有一句話可形容, “笨” 。

最後決定乃是留在沙大, 繼續MASTER。 不要在想了… 累了! 在主里享受平安。 作個在神手中有用的器皿。 要做一個有價值的才德的婦人, 我真的要負代價, 一生對主有意無損。 操練以至與敬虔。 愿主憐憫我。

My wondering days grew increasingly empty

My wondering days grew increasingly empty
As I searched for the way,
Just to fill this gap inside me
Found my seeking vain.

Though all this dark earth would convince me
Life’s worth while,
Inside all my mirth
Was a cry for something real.
Don’t you lie to me world!

For my heart tells me different
When I hear of contentment
Deep within a lack knew better
Why not honest a lack knew better
Why not be honest world.

A flood of strong doubt as I heard the old story
Of a man they called Lord;
Yet my heart never cease to wonder,
Is He really Lord?

A search on His word found my hardened
Heart softened
And earth’s vanities faded.
In the brightness of His presence
Jesus came into me.

Now we’re always together
Growing into God’s fullness.
O Lord Jesus, how I love You!
You brought life into me.

Eng Hymns 1328


There were times I felt hopeless in my life and were about to give up. Fortunately, there were saints and friends around… accompany me through.
This hymns, My wondering days! I’m sure that everyone on the earth experience wondering days in their life. How much we seek? We run after? Sometimes we might felt that this world is just too cruel! We might even question on the presence of God when we experienced something that crushed our life!

But today I just want to share that Jesus came into me on the day I was baptized, He came as light, in the brightness of His presence, He brought life and hope into me that I would tread on.
I treasure on who I am and how I was brought to the church life that I would know God through the bible.

Others might believe into God due to miracles in their life or wanting something good out from the religious. But I believe in Him because of His hand. Leading me through not only in the moment of grieved but also in the moment full of joy.

I’m glad that He had mercy on me. Reveal to me Himself that I would come to the full knowledge of Him.

The Quake

“The quake in Sichuan had so far killed more than 69,000 people. According to Mr Lu Guangjin, spokesman for the State Council, there was no tally on how many of the victims were schoolchildren. Another 17,991 remain missing and about 5 million people have been left homeless, forced to seek shelter in tent camps and hastily built prefabricated housing units. The government has said about 7,000 classrooms were destroyed, while angry parents and even rescuers have pointed to steel reinforcing rods in broken concrete slabs that were thinner than a ballpoint pen.” By CARA ANNA, Associated Press Writer 5th June 2008

Engineers were always being categorized as great professional. They constructed all things around the world in order to ease human life. However, if failure occurs, who should be pinned pointed at? The developer? The designer? The contractor? The workers? Who should bear?

I was shocked when I heart from the news that all the building around the schools were still standing straight but only schools were collapsing! What happened here?

Failures of construction causing death to such a great number of victims especially students. Shouldn’t there be any studies being carried out to curb the situation of the other buildings if such a disaster were to be occurred again?

Viewing at the statistic of the killed, injured and missing people, how many more still being buried? How much price others need to pay for it? How much the world suffered in the form of economics? How much? It was only questions without answer that were able to be posted.

Thousands of volunteers rush to Sichuan to lend a hand to victims of the quakes. Touching events were viewed from all the news especially where there were lives! There were still loving and caring ones on earth! All the medical team, the voluntary also the soldiers working not counting the amount they could earn but how many lives they could save. Praises to all the people involved not for fame but a true heart to help.

Let me remember you... (讓我記得你的臉) by AiFm DJ

I heard a song Let me remember you, “讓我記得你的臉”.

I had a deep impression of this song. A lot of time we did not treasure people or things around us. We took things for granted. Whenever there was any obstacles besides pointing fingers at each other what could be and should be done. Only a few days in Bintulu, too many things happened that even my life was nearly grasped by the King of Death. In this process, I was not threaten I know that God hands were there. If it wasn’t my time, He would protect and lead me through.

I learnt to treasure everyone and everything around me. Those missed would be my memory.

On the 2nd day when I arrived Bintulu, I was diagnosed of problems in my liver. After a week treatment, praise the Lord everything was alright. Lesson learnt was that, health come first before everything. Even if you have the best fiancé or fiancée, family members, career, house, car… is it worthwhile if you suffered from all kind of disease in order to enjoy all this? It would just be a torture to the others.

The earthquake in Sze Chuang really shakes all things down. All the historical place, families, school leaving thousands of families homeless and thousands of people losing their loved one.
Actually, I was still in my vacation in Sabah. Not knowing all the news around. When I reached home, I searched for all the news in the papers and net. Oh my gosh! I could hardly breathe. I felt pain deep within me when I saw all the photos that were captured by the reporters. There was a strong desire for me to go there to help them up! But I was not a well-trained volunteer nor do I keep myself update with the voluntary society since I left my pre-university life. Really felt sorry for not being able to help. Besides monetary terms of aid I could think of nothing to help them.

Now it was already the 2nd week of the disaster. People suffered in their mind, losing their loved one. Even though now all the countries around the world donate money for restructured the city, there was one thing that could not be restructured by money, their heart!
Thus, while I listen to the song, I was touched to treasure everyone and everything around me. Not to wait till I lost it then I wept over it! I experienced it once while I was in my second year a choice that I made hurting the one whom I loved. I would never want to experience such a feeling anymore.

Lunch at Pondok Laguna

Today going out with little Ju Imm and her parents. Having lunch at Pondok Laguna. We really enjoyed the time there, sharing all the stories of life. It's the papa and mama's time so Ju Imm and I go for photos hunting! Unfortunately din have a suitable camera to take a great photo. This not bad also... :p

This "Pondok Laguna" located at Crown Plaza, Near Hock Lee centre. It's Indonesian Style restaurant. Things are quite spicy but it's really mouth watering food... We order 6 dishes for 6 person. Can u imagine how full we are!!!

From this blending, I learnt something precious. That is to treasure the time, persons around me and me myself. A lot of time when I heard about others misfortune I just take it as a story of misfortunes. I need to learn. Ju Imm's father is actually a contractor before turning into charity worker. What changed His life and what make their whole family turn and have faith in the Lord. It's really a long story!

It's not sympathized on others misfortune. I need to see, how much God loves each and every of His chosen one!!! It make me realised of the purpose of my living!

Here we are; Brother Steven, Sister Karen, little Ju Imm and her parents...

Ju Imm and her parents
Ju Imm and I
Ju Imm and Sie Ying
At SPIC. (Local product retail) Pepper Product


This Tauhu really looks like volcano... Hahaha...
Spicy grilled fish
Here we are..

Lord, Keep my heart...

Lord, Keep my heart,
always true to you,

Never backsliding, always viewing You,

A heart that is pure, that sees only You,

A heart that loves You and treasure only You.

Yours love constrains me to give my to You.
Lord, I can't help it, my heart is drawn to You.

Oh, what a privilage! I give myself to You.

I love You, Lord, dearest Lord,

I love You, I just love You...

I enjoyed this hymns recently. It seems that I am graduating soon. Coming to the juncture of life, making decisions that are going to affect my whole life. Suddenly this hymns come into my mind. "Lord, Keep my heart". Brothers always told us that our heart is very important. If our heart is right, no matter what we do in our life the Lord would preserve our life. But if our heart is not right, no matter what we do it's not a font in the eyes of God and there won't be any blessing from God.

In this process, I learnt to pray! The Lord knew me more than I do. Seeking His leading in my life that I would be preserved. Even thought I have to take risk and give up some of my likes. I pray to the Lord that I'm lacking of faith. Let Him be my faith.

It had been a lot of time that I take my own way neglecting the feeling within. Eventually, it proves that I'd make a wrong move that i had to go through a long and tough way. This time i do not want to repeat the same thing.

It remembered me to the verses in the bible, John chapter 21. Without the word and leading of God no matter how hard I strived it was just like, Peter, as a professional fisherman couldn't even caught one fish at the Sea of Tiberias. The sea is just like today's society and the fish is the things that we want to grab... This is really a reminder to me!

I could strive to be the best student in the university, getting a high salary's job, married to the best man in this world, having a marvellous family... what is the goal? What is the purpose? Even if I gain the whole world be the same as Bill Gates. Am I satisfied?

Lots of things in our life could not be bought nor achieved! Could we achieved happiness? Freedom? Peace? Eternal life? Infinite love? Health?...

At this moment, I just want the Lord to keep my heart. Preserve me! That I would seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness...

Eventhough, now I'm in dilemma (in the sense that I had my own choice, my own preference), I 'm clear that which path I should take. May the Lord strengthen me. Take the veils away that I could see Him.

What’s your definition of LOVE?

Love is something that every creature in this world is looking for… Love could leads to different endings of a story. What is your point of view of the word LOVE?

In my personal opinion; love is just something that drags me away from where I suppose to be. My love for;
God
Family
Friends
Myself
Career
Brothers and sisters
Kids with illness
Mentally retarded children
Refugee
Many other things and persons…

How much they valued to me? It all voice down to how much I love them… I love them, thus I respect them, I honored them, I care for them, give happiness to them, teach them, guide them, listen to them, encouraged them, laugh and cry with them, share with them my life, make them part of my life…
For me, love is not just love for your lover or spouse! Is not even a love that you gave and wanting something in return!

Referring to the bible; the definition of Love in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a.

Love suffers long. Love is kind; it is not jealous. Love does not brag and is not puffed up.
It does not behave unbecomingly and does not seek its own things; it is not provoked and does not take account of evil;
It does not rejoice because of unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; It covers all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never falls away…

Versus that my dad used to sing to me when I was a child. It pinned in my heart. This is the pure love that no one could ever achieve. Only God, whom is Love. We can love because God loved us first. By loving God, being saturated and permeated by God we could partake of His nature.

What do you think?

"What lies behind you, what lies before you, does not compare to what lies within you... "

What do you think about this quote?
The firsrt time I saw it was on the way to Hamilton... It's really enlightened me of a lots of things... many times we may complains and murmured a lot on the situations or circumtances around us..
Our pass? Our future? Either it is full of joy, pain... does it really matter? Things will come and leave... the most important things is what is within you!!! What lies within you is the governing criteria for you either to move on, to slow down or even to stop completely...

So what lies within you? If you suffering right now or just anything...! Care for the one that lies within you... and you will know where should go...