The Best Love for The Lord

Loving You, Lord's all I'm living for;
Loving You, Lord, to the uttermost.
Lord, forgive me if I've left my first love,
That's the bridal love to You.
You are more than anyone I love.
You are more than anything I have,
Even my dear self; nothing can compare
To my beloved Bridegroom.

I give You the first place in all things by faith.
Let nothing take Your place in all my heart.
Infuse me with Yourself abundantly
'Til we meet, dear Lord.
I'll love You with the best love.

You've the right to take all that I love,
But replace it with Yourself much more.
You are what I need, give Yourself to me,
Do not give all that I want.
Everything is sure to pass away,
Everyone is going their own way.
But I still have You and You have me too,
Loving one another's sweet.

I treasure my time alone with You,
Just to gain the best love You long for.
My dearest Husband, draw me with Yourself
Into Your chambers right now.
Be the first in all my work and life,
Be the first in all my service too.
In relationships, You must be the first;
Have preeminence in me.

This is one of the hymns that I love the most. The hymns that encourages me and lead me unto the path full of thorns and thistles. 

I'm not sure how others view on my - a bold and dare trying gal? 

By the way, every time when I came of the juncture of my life, I'm scare! Just like ordinary gal, I'm scare on the way before me. But who knows? Who cares?

Lots of pressure was put on me recently and for sure I was suffocated. But who can I turn to? 

Thank God. When I take Him as the head, all things is well..

"Be the first in all my work and life,
Be the first in all my service too."

There is nothing I could do but trusted myself in the hand of God. He is there, leading me through the whatever path that He had laid before me. 

You are Mine

Share with all my readers a great hymn which brought Yun back to the track that Yun supposed to tread.

You are mine

I will come to you in the silence

I will lift you from all your fear

You will hear My voice

I claim you as My choice

Be still, and know I am here

I am hope for all who are hopeless

I am eyes for all who long to see

In the shadows of the night

I will be your light

Come and rest in Me

Refrain:

Do not be afraid

I am with you

I have called you each by name

Come and follow Me

I will bring you home

I love you and you are Mine

I am strength for all the despairing

Healing for the ones who dwell in shame

All the blind will see, the lame will all run free

And all will know My name

(to Refrain)

I am the Word that leads all to freedom

I am the peace the world cannot give

I will call your name, embracing all your pain

Stand up, now walk, and live!

(to Refrain)

"As a mother comforts her child, so will I comfort you."

- Isaiah 66:13

Amen

How fragile could Human being be?

Human’s life is fragile; no one would ever know what will happen in the next minute. Have you ever encountered such a distressed situation? You are with your beloved one and the very next hour you received a call saying that he/she had passed away in a car accident! What could be your reactions?

If I were in the situation, I would be dumb, not knowing what should be done or what to think of!
I experienced it once; 2 years ago a good friend of mine was killed in an accident. I did not know the occurrence until my sister told me about it out of the blue coz I was in Kuching that time preparing for my final exam.

I was shocked and scare. No one could I turn to nor could I share the feelings. I blamed him for not been there when I needed him the most. I cried for more than a week and being haunted by the feelings for more than a year! Thus, every time I heard of any accidents happened among my friends the feelings come back.

It was not until this morning, a friend of mine told me that her best friend, XX, passed away early in the morning today after celebrating her Valentine’s Night with some of her friends. I was really shocked not knowing what to think or what to say. My younger sister called me and she cried over it for XX was her friend! There is nothing that I could do nor tell to comfort her. I was in complicated and shocked feelings.

Even now.. I just want to blog out my feelings.. not knowing what am I writing about.. I just want to share with my faithful readers that you would bear with me.

Share with you all a hymn, a hymn that reminded me of my 'tomorrow'.

‘I don’t know about tomorrow’
I don’t know about tomorrow
I just live from day to day,
I don’t borrow from its sunshine
For the sky may turn to grey.
I don’t worry about my future,
For I know what Jesus says,
And today He walks besides me,
For He knows what is ahead.

© Many things about tomorrow,
I don’t seem to understand.
But I know who holds tomorrow,
And I know who holds my hand.

My wondering days grew increasingly empty

My wondering days grew increasingly empty
As I searched for the way,
Just to fill this gap inside me
Found my seeking vain.

Though all this dark earth would convince me
Life’s worth while,
Inside all my mirth
Was a cry for something real.
Don’t you lie to me world!

For my heart tells me different
When I hear of contentment
Deep within a lack knew better
Why not honest a lack knew better
Why not be honest world.

A flood of strong doubt as I heard the old story
Of a man they called Lord;
Yet my heart never cease to wonder,
Is He really Lord?

A search on His word found my hardened
Heart softened
And earth’s vanities faded.
In the brightness of His presence
Jesus came into me.

Now we’re always together
Growing into God’s fullness.
O Lord Jesus, how I love You!
You brought life into me.

Eng Hymns 1328


There were times I felt hopeless in my life and were about to give up. Fortunately, there were saints and friends around… accompany me through.
This hymns, My wondering days! I’m sure that everyone on the earth experience wondering days in their life. How much we seek? We run after? Sometimes we might felt that this world is just too cruel! We might even question on the presence of God when we experienced something that crushed our life!

But today I just want to share that Jesus came into me on the day I was baptized, He came as light, in the brightness of His presence, He brought life and hope into me that I would tread on.
I treasure on who I am and how I was brought to the church life that I would know God through the bible.

Others might believe into God due to miracles in their life or wanting something good out from the religious. But I believe in Him because of His hand. Leading me through not only in the moment of grieved but also in the moment full of joy.

I’m glad that He had mercy on me. Reveal to me Himself that I would come to the full knowledge of Him.

Lord, Keep my heart...

Lord, Keep my heart,
always true to you,

Never backsliding, always viewing You,

A heart that is pure, that sees only You,

A heart that loves You and treasure only You.

Yours love constrains me to give my to You.
Lord, I can't help it, my heart is drawn to You.

Oh, what a privilage! I give myself to You.

I love You, Lord, dearest Lord,

I love You, I just love You...

I enjoyed this hymns recently. It seems that I am graduating soon. Coming to the juncture of life, making decisions that are going to affect my whole life. Suddenly this hymns come into my mind. "Lord, Keep my heart". Brothers always told us that our heart is very important. If our heart is right, no matter what we do in our life the Lord would preserve our life. But if our heart is not right, no matter what we do it's not a font in the eyes of God and there won't be any blessing from God.

In this process, I learnt to pray! The Lord knew me more than I do. Seeking His leading in my life that I would be preserved. Even thought I have to take risk and give up some of my likes. I pray to the Lord that I'm lacking of faith. Let Him be my faith.

It had been a lot of time that I take my own way neglecting the feeling within. Eventually, it proves that I'd make a wrong move that i had to go through a long and tough way. This time i do not want to repeat the same thing.

It remembered me to the verses in the bible, John chapter 21. Without the word and leading of God no matter how hard I strived it was just like, Peter, as a professional fisherman couldn't even caught one fish at the Sea of Tiberias. The sea is just like today's society and the fish is the things that we want to grab... This is really a reminder to me!

I could strive to be the best student in the university, getting a high salary's job, married to the best man in this world, having a marvellous family... what is the goal? What is the purpose? Even if I gain the whole world be the same as Bill Gates. Am I satisfied?

Lots of things in our life could not be bought nor achieved! Could we achieved happiness? Freedom? Peace? Eternal life? Infinite love? Health?...

At this moment, I just want the Lord to keep my heart. Preserve me! That I would seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness...

Eventhough, now I'm in dilemma (in the sense that I had my own choice, my own preference), I 'm clear that which path I should take. May the Lord strengthen me. Take the veils away that I could see Him.